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You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!
You both like depression.
You: hey
Stranger: hello
Stranger: how are you feeling?
You: Sad...
Stranger: do you want to talk about it?
You: of course I do
Stranger: okay i'm all ears
You: well Thanks!
You: I'm a 21 yo boy...
In our country boys should join army for about 2 years...
now I'm a soldier in F* army!
You: I don't feel right about it...
You: I mean I don't kill anyone :) but they are wasting my time!
Stranger: are you from korea?
You: nope
You: IRAN :)))))))
You: I think I was born in the wrong place no?
Stranger: i'm really sorry for what you're going through
Stranger: it really sucks not having a choice
Stranger: do you have the option to quit?
You: no...I should stay for 2 years!
Stranger: that really sucks : ((
Stranger: but hey remember
Stranger: you can get through this
Stranger: take it a day at a time
Stranger: you may hate it at first
Stranger: or even hate it for your whole stay even
Stranger: but by taking it day by day
Stranger: you'll overcome any challenges you face : )
You: I hope so...
You: but I was thinking about suicide the other day... :)
Stranger: hey man pls don't consider it : ((
You: and I did something about it...but I failed :|
Stranger: please don't attempt it again : (
Stranger: things will get better
You: maybe 2 years is not a long time but they get it hard on us...
Stranger: i assure you
You: I have to do their jobs...and when I say I have to I really mean it!
Stranger: what happens if you refuse doing it? or refusing to join the army?
You: if we refuse to join the army we can't start our own business...we can't get loan and so on...
and when refuse to do things they order ... it's army anyway...they punish us
You: and common punishment in our army is forcing you to serve extra...
Stranger: what do you dream on becoming let's say if the army didn't get in the way
You: well I'm a programmer and I want to work for myself...
You: start a company maybe...
Stranger: i'm sure you'll be successful in your endeavors anon!
Stranger: keep going
Stranger: let that dream keep you alive
Stranger: what's 2 years compared to a dream
You: when I'm there I can't even think about my dreams!
You: sometimes we serve as a guard...
You: that's the hardest thing....!!!!!!
You: we shouldn't eat...drink...sit or sleep
You: sometimes they say don't even talk to each other.
Stranger: i'm so sorry to hear that
Stranger: how many months do you still have left?
You: about 23 month :)
Stranger: ohh you just started : o
Stranger: who knows anon
Stranger: maybe things will get better soon
You: I should serve 6 more month for extra
You: I started 4 months ago....:|
Stranger: maybe the reason why your first few months are hard is because the army is still in the process of training you
You: trainings are passed!
Stranger: who knows maybe the next few months you'll have an easier time anon
Stranger: the thing is
Stranger: you'll never know what tomorrow brings
Stranger: i know the past few months have been rough on you but please please continue to persevere anon
Stranger: do it for your dream
Stranger: i'm sure it will be all worth it in the end : )
You: I know if I can do it...I will be free but...IF I can do it!
Stranger: i'm sure you can anon!
Stranger: believe in yourself
Stranger: even if no one else does
You: like the song from King Crimson that says:
if we make it we can all sit back and laugh...But I fear tomorrow I'll be crying
You: I don't want to be an asshole but I can't think about future when I'm in there!
Stranger: do you have mates to talk to there anon?
You: I mean I can be relax now but tomorrow when I get back to work I feel sucks again :/
You: I have a friend there but I can't tell him every things!
Stranger: that's normal,, everyone hates working but it is days like this where you can rest that you should use something to look forward to!
Stranger: that's okay anon,, what's important is you have a friend to lean on
You: he wants me to help him for his business when I get back home...
but every time that I'm home I can't do anything...and I should lie to him...
You: when I'm home I just listen to musics...and do the things like chatting with strangers :)
You: even I can't talk to my family...they think that it's my weakness if I can't take it...
Stranger: that's acceptable,, it is important for you to rest so you don't get burnt out anon
Stranger: don't let their impression of you affect you anon
Stranger: it's hard being in the army
Stranger: and i know you're doing your best
Stranger: so don't let anyone tell you otherwise
You: there is someone in army for talking about all this things! but I can't even talk to him
Stranger: why not?
You: I mean he's a psychologist...but I can't tell him every things
You: I talked to him last day but he can't understand me...He thinks that it's all normal to be like this...
You: and I couldn't tell him about suicide
You: if they know that...they will give me a red card...!
Stranger: that's a shitty situation anon
Stranger: i mean
Stranger: it's their job
Stranger: why would they punish you for that
Stranger: and if he cannot understand you
You: red card means I'm a psycho and I can't do anything...even I can't leave my country!
Stranger: he's not a competent psychologist
Stranger: find another healthy support system anon
Stranger: maybe there are people there who also feel the same as you
Stranger: don't go back to that psychologist
Stranger: it's hard to fight your battle alone
Stranger: i'm sure you're not the only one who hates it there too
Stranger: just find the right people
Stranger: and maybe your stay there will not be as bad as you think : ))
You: what about you?
do you feel sad? or you're somebody to help people who are sad?
You: I mean the system found you by this "You both like depression"
Stranger: i feel sad too anon
Stranger: but i guess the best way to help myself
Stranger: is to help others
Stranger: so i'm here trying to lift up the spirits of whoever i meet
Stranger: i hope i managed to lift up yours somehow anon
You: well that's great!
at least you know what to do! :)
You: are u a psychologist or something?
Stranger: no i'm an accountant haha : )
Stranger: i gotta go now anon,, it's 1:30 in the morning in my country and i have to finish my projects
Stranger: thank you for sharing your story
Stranger: i will never forget it
You: Thank you for listening and help!
Stranger: keep going alright?
You: yeah I'm trying...:)
Stranger: you're gonna achieve your dreams :)
Stranger: i believe in you anon
Stranger: best of luck !!
Stranger: goodbye
You: Thanks...Goodbye!
Stranger has disconnected.
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